Unanswered Prayers
Today, I thought of how my life has turned out and I got to thinking of all the things I'd prayed for and how God did not answer some of those prayers. And, all I could think was, "Thank you God for NOT answering those prayers!"
Some were crazy, others downright stupid. Many were silly, probably shallow. But one stands out.
I wanted children so much after I got married - wanted to have them early, by the time I was 30 (I was 25 and a half when I got married) so that at 40, my kids would be teenagers at the very least and I would be this hip Mom. I prayed and reminded God almost everyday for the first 6 years of my marriage. He did not answer me. I decided not to ask anymore - I figured He had decided no kids for me. Fast forward, first to 2007 (exactly 14 years after my hubby and I had our engagement ceremony) and the arrival of our precious daughter, whose name represents the faith of everyone but mine and the arrival of our equally precious son 18 months later; and second to the present time as I sit and enjoy my two beloved children and I realize that had God answered my prayers all those years ago, I would not have these two beautiful miracles. Because, miracles they are.
So. God, I thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for all my unanswered prayers. You are the best!
Ps. He did answer the prayer I prayed when I stopped praying for children - I prayed that He would tell me "why" when the wait was over. Why He did not answer my prayer for children in those years. And, the first time I held my daughter in my arms, I very clearly heard a voice say "This is why".
Some were crazy, others downright stupid. Many were silly, probably shallow. But one stands out.
I wanted children so much after I got married - wanted to have them early, by the time I was 30 (I was 25 and a half when I got married) so that at 40, my kids would be teenagers at the very least and I would be this hip Mom. I prayed and reminded God almost everyday for the first 6 years of my marriage. He did not answer me. I decided not to ask anymore - I figured He had decided no kids for me. Fast forward, first to 2007 (exactly 14 years after my hubby and I had our engagement ceremony) and the arrival of our precious daughter, whose name represents the faith of everyone but mine and the arrival of our equally precious son 18 months later; and second to the present time as I sit and enjoy my two beloved children and I realize that had God answered my prayers all those years ago, I would not have these two beautiful miracles. Because, miracles they are.
So. God, I thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for all my unanswered prayers. You are the best!
Ps. He did answer the prayer I prayed when I stopped praying for children - I prayed that He would tell me "why" when the wait was over. Why He did not answer my prayer for children in those years. And, the first time I held my daughter in my arms, I very clearly heard a voice say "This is why".
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