A Letter to my Son
Bobo mi!
Your look of shock and denial cracks me up. I have just told you that someday, you will leave home, be on your own and will not remember to call your mom. You are almost in tears, your voice wobbly as you spit out your signature "Never!!!" You are hugging me so tight and refusing to let go. You cannot contemplate that you will not be a "gum-gum" boy forever. And this warms my heart - your inability to see or imagine a life without me in it daily. But a life without me you will have - it is life and it is right. You will be independent, well adjusted and NOT a Mummy's boy. And though I will be exasperated (and a little sad) at your not remembering to call me, I will be proud that you would have grown up to be the wonderful person God wants you to be.
I watch you grow and I am thankful to God everyday for the gift of you. You bring me joy always, even when you are being naughty!
You are the son of my heart, my baby boy who warms his mother's soul with his unconditional love and the unshakeable trust that Mummy can solve all his problems - like helping to fix his Spiderman toy whose head just snapped off; with his randomly whispered "I love you so much, Mommy" and his many kisses.
My Bobo, who believes that I am his personal property and struggles with sharing me with his beloved sister. I see the struggles you have with the love you have for her and the love you have for me - whose side should you be on? I say to you, like always, when it comes to a choice between her and anyone else, ALWAYS choose her. Always.
When you arrived in my life, I was afraid I would not have enough love for another - how could my heart be big enough for two children? But God's wonders never cease, for lo, my heart simply swells with the love I have for you and your sister! I pray that He gives me the grace & strength to be the mother you need.
My little man, I pray, always, that the good Lord guides you in everything, that He protects you from the evils that will tempt you and for those temptations that you will give in to that they may not ruin you or your life forever. That the mistakes you will make will not cause permanent pain & hurt in your life and in the lives of those around you.
I wish I could protect you from all the nastiness of this world that we live in, that I could preserve your innocence forever. I hope that life's lessons do not scar you, that people do not disenchant you, that your faith in God does not waver, ever.
Someday, when I am gone, I hope you will read this and smile and the tears in your eyes will not be of sorrow, but of remembered love & joy.
I love you, always & forever.
Your look of shock and denial cracks me up. I have just told you that someday, you will leave home, be on your own and will not remember to call your mom. You are almost in tears, your voice wobbly as you spit out your signature "Never!!!" You are hugging me so tight and refusing to let go. You cannot contemplate that you will not be a "gum-gum" boy forever. And this warms my heart - your inability to see or imagine a life without me in it daily. But a life without me you will have - it is life and it is right. You will be independent, well adjusted and NOT a Mummy's boy. And though I will be exasperated (and a little sad) at your not remembering to call me, I will be proud that you would have grown up to be the wonderful person God wants you to be.
I watch you grow and I am thankful to God everyday for the gift of you. You bring me joy always, even when you are being naughty!
You are the son of my heart, my baby boy who warms his mother's soul with his unconditional love and the unshakeable trust that Mummy can solve all his problems - like helping to fix his Spiderman toy whose head just snapped off; with his randomly whispered "I love you so much, Mommy" and his many kisses.
My Bobo, who believes that I am his personal property and struggles with sharing me with his beloved sister. I see the struggles you have with the love you have for her and the love you have for me - whose side should you be on? I say to you, like always, when it comes to a choice between her and anyone else, ALWAYS choose her. Always.
When you arrived in my life, I was afraid I would not have enough love for another - how could my heart be big enough for two children? But God's wonders never cease, for lo, my heart simply swells with the love I have for you and your sister! I pray that He gives me the grace & strength to be the mother you need.
My little man, I pray, always, that the good Lord guides you in everything, that He protects you from the evils that will tempt you and for those temptations that you will give in to that they may not ruin you or your life forever. That the mistakes you will make will not cause permanent pain & hurt in your life and in the lives of those around you.
I wish I could protect you from all the nastiness of this world that we live in, that I could preserve your innocence forever. I hope that life's lessons do not scar you, that people do not disenchant you, that your faith in God does not waver, ever.
Someday, when I am gone, I hope you will read this and smile and the tears in your eyes will not be of sorrow, but of remembered love & joy.
I love you, always & forever.
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